I spent xmas alone. and crying.
I spent New Years alone. and crying.
Every once in a while, crying, I get angry. Like, why.
And then I hear a talk show host in my head, giving the strong talk.
you know. be strong. x x x could be so much worse. you don't have it that bad.
who wants to hear your whining. in fact there is a voice of someone in particular i hear
someone I know -- isn't that sad -- sneering at me.
I didn't feel like anyone cared.
And if they did care, I didn't feel they could be comforting.
Until I texted D yesterday. She was kind.
And I talked to S. today who let me cry on the phone with her and told me phenomenal things.
And then Ch. called me. And said she knew what I meant. That she was back in town and to call whenever.
I needed some comforting today.
Like a mom might, if you have a mom like that.
I don't have a mom anymore and I am very sad about that.
I miss very much.